Lately I have not really felt like myself I have not been sleeping or eating like max does it feels like I am out side of my body looking at myself. It is almost like I am watching a movie and I know how it starts but I dont know when or how it is going to end, I have been reading a lot about mental health and symptomatology psychognosis and diagnosi it is a good read. I know that there is something wrong with me and I am going to find out why I am the way I am. I dont know if this will take the rest of my life or just most of it but one thing I know is I will learn why I act and think like I do. I really dont know what the hell I am doing putting this in my blog but I am I think I should be able to share every aspect of my thoughts and watch peoples reactions so that I can find out how people act when they find out I am truthfully mad. Mental health seems to be the base of every thing we do and become in our lives. This is more about exploring the depth of my mental processes. Now lets go down the rabbit hole and see what we find.