Is coffee good for me? I dont care, I sit in coffee shops to read and drink over piced coffee. Looking like I am a importend person. I think every one does some thing like this because I think we are all afraid of being alone, out of place or not fitting in. that is the greatest human fear. That is why people use isolation  to break some one down in cases of torture and imprisonment. I would fear that most, total isolation. It come from our need as a whole  to group together with like people. This is why in high school there are all of the groups. it is so we dont feel alone. We need to be with our own kind, in some cases there are some people who cant be around there own kind they are what I wish I could be on day. anti-social, it would be nice to be that. I find my self wanting what we are not made to be. We where not maid to be alone.   

sorry about the spelling and grammar on this entry. I did it all from my phone.

ok so I have not done very much the last week or so. So there is not much for me to tell you all. One thing I did was I got trained to be a crasher. This will open up other jos for me if I want to try to get a 2 job. I need money!

Here is some thing to keep you coming, some music.

I got a reply from the artist who drew the lovely drawing I posted a few days ago she has agreed to do a short Q&A with me. I am hoping to post it here in the next few days. I also have been working on a few new drawings of my own I will be posting them some time after the 10th of this month, many of them will be of things I see and people I have meet on tiny chat. It is a set of about six drawing. So stay safe til my next post.

Rappelz an online mmorpg. Well lets see how this game goes. I know nothing about this game except a friend told me it was good. I will take you thru how it goes.

Setup
the setup was painless it took all of 30 sec to create a account.  the game itself only took about 20 min to down load. It downloads like every other piece of software out there.It save as a binary you click it and it starts the setup. No hassle.

Creating a player
You choose from 15 distinct classes, ranging from monster tamers to axe-wielding battle mages. It makes me thin of W.O.W.

User interface
the user interface is a very simple one it reminds me alot of the Zelda game crossed with the halo HUD. It is easy to remember where every thing is at.
 
Game play
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I am just updating you on some of the useless shit I have been up to. Well the artist from the last post has failed to reply to my emails at this point I am unsure if I will be able to do the Q & A with her. I have been spending a lot of my free time on tiny chat. I spend most of that talking to kids in the UK they seem to be smarter then the kids here. I drew a picture for a girl I met on there a few day ago she goes by the name of sky I have also been working a lot to taco bell is a harder job then I thought.  :blahblah: I really dont have much else to talk about so I will just give you a youtube video to watch.

Lately I have not really felt like myself I have not been sleeping or eating like max does it feels like I am out side of my body looking at myself. It is almost like I am watching a movie and I know how it starts but I dont know when or how it is going to end, I have been reading a lot about mental health and symptomatology psychognosis and diagnosi it is a good read. I know that there is something wrong with me and I am going to find out why I am the way I am. I dont know if this will take the rest of my life or just most of it but one thing I know is I will learn why I act and think like I do. I really dont know what the hell I am doing putting this in my blog but I am I think I should be able to share every aspect of my thoughts and watch peoples reactions so that I can find out how people act when they find out I am truthfully mad. Mental health seems to be the base of every thing we do and become in our lives. This is more about exploring the depth of my mental processes. Now let ... Read more »

I am just chillin at my brothers house out in Beulah Co. It is a great place to chill and take it easy. There is truthfully nothing to do out here but well more nothingness. It is kinda fun. I am only out here for the night so ya I am going to be back in Pueblo in the morning.